Dunno wht wrong,i received a call in the morning,it was a news tat changed my day.It is not regarding me but someone closely related to me more thicker thn blood.She told me tat she broke up with her bf,it was really a shock to me at first.Both of them were so loving,i really hope they could last as i could see tat she is happy with him at least in front of me.When she called me happily telling me this piece of news and happily chatting to me,i could sense tat something is not right...I was really busy today.She really worries me ,She really does...I called her a couple of times but to no avail...thought something had happen to her.But when i saw her online ,i was like heng arhs.She is a strong person,i really admire her character in doing things,her determination,confidence and working attitude...She puts a brave front in front of me,but i dunno why i can sense tat matters are not as simple.She kept her problems to herself ,hoping to solve and handle them on her own without dragging any ppl into her situation.
She took up smoking ,which she thinks tat she could destress.It could be all my fault agn,it all beats down to me.People close to me or following me,nvr gets to a gd ending.One by one tooking up smoking,fighting in schs and lots of things which i wouldnt want them to get their hands on.Why cant i change them,why?why?why? This question is going through my mind all along,i dun set bad examples other than speaking some vulgar language.
All me agn, maybe i should leave for the time being.Maybe this is better for her and my guys,they could change and learn better i hope.Am still quite a failure ,a leader should change and inspire ppl....I fail to do it ,but became worst instead.
I gt one of my most important and trusted person in life to this state she is in,It could all be due to my bad luck.If she nvr knew me.She would still be living happily....All i hope is tat u are fine....
227636 pls be alright and really hope u could tide over this problems and see ur smile and joyfullness soon...
